WTC-A-1-S-X

SCENE TEN (X)

“какими судьбами”

Pronunciation: kaKEEmee sud’BAHmee 

Meaning: how surprising to meet you here

Literal translation:  

“BY WHICH FATES”

Set on the Onderdonk Fields between the border of Breuklyne and Queens on Friday morning of the Labor Day Weekend. A warehouse district of tumbleweeds, scrap metal dealers, and the smell of burnt fuels.

  Newyorkgrad is sizzling with fete and fever. Thousands of people are about to be gunned down in the streets of Breuklyne. They just don’t all know it yet. Most of the high class Blan are still in the countryside. Most of the Neg have a three day weekend they don’t understand. The sun is shining and also baking us all alive. The late summer humidity. It remains oppressive. The Flushing Avenue highway leads from Breuklyne deep into the greener pastures of Queens passing through a vast industrial district along the border. In a sense it and the Dutch Kills creek are the East to West Breuklyn-Queens border. A heat wave of unprecedented proportions has been ravishing the city for the entire three weeks.

They put that little bitch Greta on TV again, to talk about Global Warming. She mumbles something in Norwegian about no longer using airplanes. But really it’s all just Capitalist Modernity. You can only gang rape the earth for so long before she begins to die inside. And then die outside too.

Dozens of multicolored tents have been erected at the top of a green hill whose perimeter is a steel fence. At its north side is a small Dutch historic home and the rest a campground in the badlands of Industrial Bushwhack. A big band stage is almost finished in erection to blare live Gypsy Latin music is being set up and sound tested. A four day proclamation of lawlessness has been posted, but only the social club staff and its regulars will truly be encamping. At forty dollars a day, it’s a rather pricey venture to go camping in a field in the heart of a barren industrial wasteland between Breuklyn and Queens known for salvage yards, construction material stockpiling, biker gangs, and various front operations. A railroad to a poisonous green river called the Dutch Kills Creek separating Breuklyn and Queens officially.

Slavi, stone faced with black hair until he cracks a jovial grin only to those he knows is Sasho’s brother. The sometimes grinning Bulgarian enforcer is at the gate nominally charging people whom he doesn’t recognize as the spoken for “regulars’ ‘. Justin O’Azzello, “the General Manager ” is cooking up “kielbasa” and barking grinning efficient commands on set up.

“What are the kielbasa made of,” asks Viktoria, who has booked all the bands and done much of the production work to make this Bohemian Festival occur.

“What are they made of Pendejo,” repeats her husband Raphael.

“A special type of chicken,” says Justin with his mouth, but ‘people’ with his teeth and she refrains from trying.

 At various points Justin Toomey O’Azzello has come and gone as Mehanata’s General Manager. He’s quit, gotten fired, quit, gotten sober, quit, found HaShem, rehired, lost HaShem, gotten wicked drunk, gotten very sober, and now, he seems to be conducting business well enough and is back in the good graces of the management. Which means Sasho, and maybe to a lesser degree in reporting and accounting; Misha Kishbivalli, but Sasho is the boss. The Onderdonk Fields are now held by a colorful gypsy mafia. Sasho and his young son join a game of football game now underway.

Around 16:00 pm Kawa Zivistan shows up. He’s carrying a large red medical tech bag. The big red bag contains various basic life support that should hopefully not be utilized, and also two bottles of red wine. He joins Victoria and Raphael on the top of the hill by the main encampment. Raphael and Kawa comrades embrace as they always do. They grin because they know what is coming in the next 72 hours. Debauchery punctuated with acts of defiance and sedition. 

A large and gregarious man rises to introduce himself as Oleg. A slinky, slender dark brown-haired woman at his side does not introduce herself at all. Also seated in the main encampment at the hill top are Lia Monteleone with her big French tits. Georgie Rabanca and Dasha Andreavna Skorobogatova. Daria ignores his arrival completely, as though she doesn’t know or care who he is. The burly Post-Soviet Oleg with a cropped beard and fashionable dress with a camera around his neck steps up and offers his hand.

“Oleg Medved is my name,” the big Russian fellow says.

“Kawa Zivistan,” Zivistan replies, “this is my ambulance partner Jared Forgetter, medical partner for the encampment, not homosexual lover to be clear.”

Oleg grins and pours everyone drinks. Zivistan takes out a large bottle of Spanish red wine and uncorks it. He passes out real wine glasses wrapped up in socks.

They all then dance and dance and drink and steal and make art and chat about the world. The fearsome, but utterly kindhearted Ukrainian Illubadori gangster Oleg Medved ‘from Boston’ takes a wide assortment of photos of former and Post Soviet models. Victoria has arranged a series of photo shoots and allegedly Alan, who most call ‘Oleg the Bear’ is local celebrity “up in Boston” and he takes tons of fashionable pictures. Kawa in his blue paramilitary-style EMT uniform with a red bandanna arm band is soon dancing the half tango, half salsa with Dasha clad in a yellow mesh cocktail dress with blue Indian war paint under her eyes; it makes for a lovely picture. “I didn’t recognize you in that faded blue uniform and your strange little partisan cap,” Daria exclaims.

The four day Bohemian Gypsy Festival is on Friday day one full swing by evening. It’s a very Old Soul-Old School movement of a moment. They’ve taken a barren camp ground in a bad part of the warehouse district and turned into something of a cross between the Gypsies of Patagonia and or a cold war partisan encampment. Zivistan has little actual medical work to do. Zivistan begins working on a sketch of Georgie and the big French tits on Amelia. Georgie with a laugh mentions he found black and blue marks all over his woman’s body the night she went back to Kawa’s home two weeks prior. ‘The night Dasha nearly killed you.’

“I fell down some stairs,” is all Amelia says. Georgie laughs it all off because he knows Kawa is a very tragic man. A good man but a tragic man. Kawa doesn’t have it in him to have any affairs. We barely even ask anyone to dance. Georgie who is a CUNY Graduate Center professor and also a computer scientist has affairs all the time, but he is not an American, or tragic, or rarely ever sad. However, Amelia’s black and blue marks are from someone fucking her dirty and rough. Not fucking her with love making. Just one week ago.
Georgie wonders when it will be that Dasha Skorobogatova gives him the opportunity for a good fuck. How much will that cost? Admittedly such a conquest seems expensive in a few regards. Probably a grand an hour. Georgie feels sad for Kawa at times. He buys him drinks periodically with an ugly Romanian smile. Recently he became aware of the possibility of the small and short affair between Kawa and another regular Tavern mistress, the French girl named Amelia. He was shocked that any beautiful woman could find pleasure with such a sad, broken man. Kawa can’t dance and Kawa doesn’t ever smile. 

 Low and behold Dasha and Kawa are dancing up a storm tonight. To the Latin Gypsy Ska Jazz Band Escarioka now playing a cover of the ‘DunDunbanza’. Followed by brass jazz of the Sunny Side Social Club. Their front man blows through coke like a champion snow blower. George has never even seen the ‘Kawabumga man’ dance more than two or three highly forced times. No use of hips at all!

Daria is a woman at the tavern that turns all the heads. Even more so than that American girl Jessica who always takes off her clothes and climbs the downstairs stripper poles. Even more than Amelia who has slept with almost everyone. Even more than the Moldovan twins who kiss all the time. Daria arrived perhaps six months ago and now certainly has a very regular card. Kawa turned his card in for some time and has just begun to reestablish it.  A Mehanata regular doesn’t just show up early and stay late two or three weekend days open. They make themselves part of the tavern’s ecosystem. They have riotous affairs. They get into fights with the Shqiptarëtis. They make a huge scene to the scene!

“Now I could not have seen that happening,” says George to Raphael, “he never ever dances!”

“She’s just fucking that hot, Prosto,” Raphael says. Prosto is Russian for simple as can be.

Daria Andreavna is never far from the fact that Kawa not only has steel-toed boots and two left feet. She takes him up on his hand to dance over and over. Kawa is so happy to be dancing again. He aims to do it well. He swore to her on the night she almost killed them that he never dances anymore. So that night before the fall, she made him two-step in a mirror as she watched and pressed her weight against his hip until he came correct.

“Your hips man! Move your goddamn hips.”

He almost crushes her bare foot with a steel toed combat boot dip.

Rafael is wearing a gold baseball cap and sits watching with his wife Viktoria manically trying to direct this shit show. Bands not showing up, nothing going to schedule everyone getting more and more furiously drunk. In yesteryear and future years Raphael commanded men, now he mostly makes life. With his music twice a week at the tavern as part of Bordel Dali and he also makes love with his camera twice a week and always maintains a slave job at a boutique blue jeans fashion repair shop where wealthy clients send their favorite expensive jeans for salvage. But, a revolutionary is a revolutionary and when asked by the resistance three weeks ago to activate his cell and raid the big blue tower to deposit the transmitter for the Fire Switch Station to broadcast orders and shut down government coms during the Labor Day Parade, he agreed. Jumping out of planes, carrying out raids and building non-lethal bombs, or taking hostages is like riding a bike, you never forget how to do it.

“I like to see him pretending to be happy,” says Raphael to Viktoria.

“They are too tricky. A thing moving too fast,” states Viktoria as she watches out of the corner of her eye. Viktoria is very happy with herself for it was she who made this four day festival come together. It is mostly out of control, of course money was never Sasho’s aim this time. She has no idea her husband and most of the Peruvian Ska band Eskarioka are about to stage a raid on the tallest building in Queens. She has no idea that Oleg Medved and Yulia Romanova are poisoning half the camp with vodka based neurotransmitters. She has no idea there is a dead hooker in the tent next to hers. She has no idea that an Iranian sleeper cell is carrying a bomb into the heart of Times Square to black out the city in an electromagnetic pulse early Monday morning. She has no idea that 2 million black women, men and children are coordinating their revelry amid an armed uprising. She just isn’t aware of those things.

Viktoria doesn’t know about all that many of her husband’s affairs. She certainly doesn’t know he used to lead a guerrilla band in Peru. Called the ‘Bolivarian Hotshots’. They had gunned down many capitalists in the Fujimori Years. She loves Raphael, her husband with all her heart. She partially likes Kawa Zivistan as her tragic brother. She loves but also hates Sasho who gives her a platform for her fashion, art and music. She came to this city and got a job at the Tavern as events producer and tavern has taken over most of her life and time. She doesn’t see the world like Raphael does, or Kawa did before his friends put him into sleep. ‘Sleep is the cousin of death’, but not physical death. It is simply reducing the size of the world one can see, third, fourth and fifth and sixth dimensionally.

    Kawa and Viktoria can only really see a couple days into the past and future. Whereas people like Raphael, and Dasha Andreavna can see things much further back and forward, see things happening in other realities. It makes them very, very functional in this reality. The more one drinks, the less they see. If Viktoria Contreras was aware of any of the danger near her, she’d have a baby heart attack. Probably move back to upstate New York where the world is a bit safer. Back to her hippy parents’ Alpaca farm. Way out of the coming crossfire.

She can’t be tamed by any man or any other being,” declares Raphael in Spanish.

“He will try, but when he fails I’ll have to pick up the messy pieces yet again,” states Viktoria. She’s already had to coax him gently from his old Russian geisha Ms. Maria Parsheva. As well as his Yelizaveta Aleksandrovna and then to freedom and then through the affair where he broke the French girl Amelia’s heart. It’s now back to the bondage of his wanton reckless emotions from the look of it. Kawa’s habit of loving early and often is the source of his exceptional art and writing. She admires that about him though, she’s a hopeless romantic herself. It is Viktoria’s shoulder where Kawa does his most cathartic crying over the past three years since they all met on Floyd Bennett Field at the original Bohemian-Gypsy-Tabor festival on the abandoned tarmacs of the abandoned Idlewild airport. A cool breeze breaks the city’s August humid heat wave.

“Spin me even faster man!” commands Dasha. He is under her spell.

She feeds him still more red wine. He can be known to drink in uniform when a General like Sasho gives him the green light to do so. Kawa has at least some discipline, but like a regular rank and file loses this discipline if the drinking lets him and the front seems far. And surely it takes a lot of drink to render him incapable of splinting extremities or dealing with overly intoxicated people, the most likely of injuries. But now, he’s really not good for much but chasing this woman. He knows nothing of Nikolai’s “great big hectic job.”

As a card-carrying ‘Banshee member’ he has several local ambulance crews on speed dial, worse comes to worse. There are endless bottles of wine and vodka miraculously stashed away about the encampment. All need more than tasting.

Kawa Zivistan is no obvious martyr today, or yesterday. Obviously for all his past mountains of zeal he’s built up, he saw the loveliest girl in the camp teach him how to dance and then try and kill him two weeks prior. He cannot be unaffected by the contrasts there. And if he was aware that his closest circle is up to something very large and possibly violent, he “is asleep.” He is out of the chain of command until reactivation after his paramedic graduation. Which is in Nivôse.

After his work in Haiti, they brought him to the bathhouse. They submerged his consciousness in the great waters of a temple buried in the earth; and to keep him safe they closed his eyes and made him aware only of what was around him in a small circle of seeing. A hint that there was a close bout with death has been made. Did our protagonist antagonists actually plummet to death off a rooftop? The night Daria and Kawa boxed ferociously after he yanked the cigarette from out her mouth, she shoved him off a roof.  That was two weeks prior from the night before the Blue Moon now. He grabbed out for her and they both died falling into the deadly drop pit. She did shove to kill, but rather than make suicide assembled he pulled her along, to death. They definitively toppled off the roof into that pit of death. But angels quickly and immediately came to their rescue, in some form. Only Nanoseconds after lying broken and dead in a pit of death having killed each other over nothing. Over posturing and arrogance and lack of respect for physics. For the pair reality reset. ‘The angels’, on behalf of ‘the spirits’ , took their two souls from their corpses and went back in time five seconds. Put the souls impolitely into two new bodies of Kawa and Dasha, waiting in a clear blue-white chemical bath. It took just five human seconds to reload them. A near-death experience was now a vodka-based-near-life experience. Because ‘the spirits’ were protecting them both. 

Panting hard, as if post-coitus she grabbed his right hand. Daria then bit down into his right index finger to draw blood. He made no reaction; his animal soul hasn’t fully absorbed itself into his new body. Then they lay panting by the edge of the precipice staring each other down, bitten hand clasped and bleeding; and then she confessed to him things that were highly unnerving.  Some were true. And some were white lies.

Now, back to the festival!

Now, “she remembers nothing” and keeps urging him to explain their first night of misconduct under the good night almost blue moon and tell her what happened on the “roof of the financial district.”

Had they fallen into that pit having no spirits or angel to aid them you could have taken their bodies out a side basement door and it wouldn’t have even been real news. Senseless tragedy only bothers all of the living as everyone is missed by someone. So now they dance and self-seduce, she would say she is incapable he is above it, so they self-seduce. They are engaged in a passionate stare down, but it is more playful than hot. She is very used to drunken men desiring her. He is very used to being a sober gentleman and sometimes also a drunken man.  

Viktoria Lynch can see the steam and glow from the tent camp at the top of the hill. It reminds her vaguely of the wild passion that came over her several years ago when she wrested Rafael from the arms of a wealthy temptress and got the ring of marriage around his ways.

Kawa is a marvelously incompetent, albeit enthusiastic dancer. Dasha drags him off here and there and they imbibe relentlessly without even seeming to stagger.

Night comes and the darkness falls.

“Tender to see you saving the life of Sasho’s son,” Dasha had whispered earlier, making a dry Russian joke out of his earlier handy work. 

He had put an ice pack on a not that sprained ankle of the eleven year old son of the club’s owner. But, it was a smash hit. Calling an ambulance can cost between $475.00 and $4,000.00 in Newyorkgrad.

“Saving lives is much easier than taking them,” he says with a grin, “in the long run anyway.”

“So what happened again on your fateful roof! Tell me the whole fucking story!” she demands.

“So no one meta died, or really died. Only almost died. Because when dawn broke two weeks prior we were still standing, I called you a cab and we begrudgingly agreed to meet again, only by fated coincidence, as we are both members of the same social club.”

“Fascinating talk!” she says, staring out into the bonfires of the encampment. Pouring perhaps the fifteenth glass of wine. Knowing behind her bluff they were about five three dimensional seconds were warm, bloody broken and dead.  

They had gotten quite drunk on wine, then Astika, then Rakia and then Russian Standard Vodka, eventually. 

Again she pressed him for, “The whole of the fucking story blat.

“We boxed out. You drank hard and boxed me harder. Then we fell twenty stories to our deaths in a sub-basement pit,” he explains, “Prosto.”

 “And now we dance like two lovers who could have been just two separate funerals, in two separate languages, with Raphael Rafael and Victoria being the only overlapping guests of note,” she notes and winks at him.

The festival has become an alcoholic blur to all involved by midnight thirty.

Dasha and Sebastian dance, dance, and dance like they almost died for nothing just a week before. Under a bog moon taking shape in the night sky above the border between Queens and Breuklyn.

Earlier in the day Oleg Medved took a good many pictures of her and the three lesser former and Post Soviet models from Bucharest, Bulgaria, and Transdeisnester Republic. And also of lovely Victoria who always looks lovely and charming and caring for this rowdy band that gravitates to the tavern. While refusing to let the sometimes dirty laundry of her marriage ever be aired in public views. Though there have been improvements lately.

Kawa kisses Dasha’s hand at the end of the song, then lets her swoop low and he catches her in his arms as she gets an inch from the ground with her long golden locks. It is not a smooth or graceful motion, but he tries the best he can. They nearly topple over.

Then she has her lips pressed to his neck. And they eye into each other, taking in the passion that they are generating without necessarily acting any further on it. 

I will call you Sebastian!” she declares. “My name for you from this point out will be the name on your passport. The name you were given at your Trinidadian birth.

“I will call you Dasha.  As I have from the very beginning.”

You are like a devil, you have way too many strange names,” she smiles. 

Drunkenly they declare what each had planned to name to the other already. Then more dancing, dancing and more dancing; sway and grind like they almost died for nothing. Kawa kisses her hand at the end of the song, then lets her swoop low and he catches her in his arms as she gets inches from the ground with her long golden locks. For the second time now with not much more grace than before.

Then she has her lips pressed to his neck. Again. I could fall for her quite hard, he thinks, but he obviously has thought such thoughts before. A rather ferocious amount of wine first. Then the Russian Standard Vodka Oleg the Bear has in a large Casque and also numerous Astika beers are consumed. These are not amateurs by any means. 

A little party never hurts nobody! An Old Illubadori slogan of the night,” says Oleg.

Finally around 3 am the camp gets quieter, the Bohemian festival dies down enough for Dasha and Kawa to sit almost on top of each other, leaning in, coloring the sketch he’s made of their near fall and of her beauty over two pages of his black archive.

Daria then colors away at his sketches enthusiastically. She smiles radiantly and takes each color rendering his work into a superior rendition via the brightness of the combined war effort. Then they go and dance their asses off. 

Finally around 5 am the camp gets quietest, the Bohemian festival dies down enough for bonfire calm without drumming. Rafael , Dasha and Kawa sit at the edge of a terrific fire now also dying down. They are quite drunk. “Derangedely” speaking on the subject of “phantom physics” and “meta-reality”. Kawa is waxing philosophically, as Dasha’s eyes roll, on the theoretical possibility of parallel reality and past lives. He pulls this from somewhere, according to Dasha, “His own ass.” 

A little faux-intellectual rant positing his personal theory of existence. 

Raphael Contreras nods in agreement, adding his own deductions. His own Mayan prophecies mixed with some Peruvian socialist folklore of the Arequipa Province.

“What if there are other lives running right alongside this one!” exclaims a dazed and inebriated Kawa Zivistan, “other possibilities, other potentialities had tiny little digressions been made on the course we follow in this waking life? What if, mind you, the slightest digression and decision had yielded a vastly different outcome from what we experience now? And, what if there was some way to step from one reality to another. Moving about time, changing your body while keeping your soul and memories intact?”

Ironically, as if he had ten thousand spoons and all he needed was a knife; Kawa Zivistan has in his drunken stupor articulates exactly what has happened to both he and Dasha just two weeks before.

“Fascinating talk boys before we die,” remarks Dasha yawning.  

It is to Kawa Zivistan like one of those grand conversations he once one had in the East Village coffee house Yaffa Cafe over red wine when he was younger. Or on the Golan Heights hills in Syria. Sweet and danger-filled mental nostalgia.

“Do you believe in your past lives?” asks Rafael .

“Well certainly! It’s so primitive to think this is all a showdown between god and the devil over souls, one person, one life, one try! How pedantic!” 

“So then you believe in alternative realities, and also reincarnation?” Rafael asks.

Dasha makes faces at Kawa as they go on. The fire continues to die down.

Tovarish Philosopher I’m tired and need to be put to sleep,” she says.

“Soon, soon,” Zivistan says.

“The Old Soul is what I heard it called once,” says Rafael , when I was a boy in Arequipa Province, “the body is but a vessel my father and mother said. Like a suit for the soul strolling across time, across many lives. An Old Soul remembers these lives and in doing so has a mission to accomplish, what the Hindu call a dharma.”

“Boys! To bed!” yells Dasha.

Kawa asks her for five minutes to finish his idea. She scowls and gives him three and takes off in a pout.

Raphael Rafael with a devilish smirk says, “Speak of reality later. Go after her or I will.” Kawa catches up with her mid-hill and takes her hand.

“Lie down with me,” he says.

“That conversation was a lot of bullshit, you know,” she says.

“It’s fun to speak about this bullshit sometimes.”

“Where will there be the best sleep for us?”

“I have a blanket,” he says, forgetting about the inflatable mattress.

 Dasha and Kawa sit almost on top of each other at the top of the hill under the trees. He pulls a black and green Arabian blanket from his rucksack. She finds another bottle of wine as if out of thin air. Pours them both glasses. Watch him prepare the bare accommodations. She pages through and returns to late-night coloring the sketch he’s made of their fall and of her vastness over two pages of his black archive.

She stares into him with Old Soul eyes.

“Will you be my sweet Tovarisha for the whole of the festival?” he asks her, “We can share our wine and food and I will watch over you.”

“Ha, ha! Tovarish is gender-neutral. It is not changed to “Tovarish-a” for women. We are not Hispanish! We were all equals in Soviet Russian. Only word in Russian without gender inflection. Also, I need not be watched after. I am always safe!”

“Be my Tovarish then and look after me then.”

“We will see. For now; this is just an okay plan. I will leave you in the morning.

They draw closer into a cuddle and then complete a spoon. She wraps herself within his arms and he holds her like it is his duty, but it is also a thrill of some buried passion. He holds her tight like a little partisan as the trees whisper and the two double blue moons that are out late can blot out reasonable doubt. He likes to hold her. They curl together on an inflatable mattress and a green Arabian blanket. They are both, for a variety of reasons unaccustomed to the perfect fit of a well-intentioned cuddle. 

They fall into what passes as sleep, her first. As if on demand.

“We almost died for nothing,” he says.

What if I just kill all your hope,” she mutters in a foreign tongued whisper.

What if I love you until you know just what hope is truly so good for?” he responds to her in a muted tone. Possible in Hebrew.

“Don’t speak now of such goddamn stupid and impossible things,” she whispers.

They lie together in that Gypsy camp draped into each other on the air mattress and floating on a dream the only two partisans without tents. He dreams of escaping the struggle against the reaper to be forever in her arms and she dreams of a big black cat with a fiddle while a man on the moon plays the world’s smallest violin just for her little Amerikanski. No, that’s just a romantic little literary device. He dreams of her and she dreams of nothing at all. Nothing at all she will ever, ever talk about to a man. And that nothingness is subjective, but not the objective of her “inebriations”.

A good night for Kawa is not to dream at all; his dreams are clusters nightmares. She has thus rendered him peaceful. A good night for Dasha is to drink and dance until the night is a blur of happy smiling, swirling dance movies and escaping in a peaceful haze. He watches the moon and feels her breathing heavily against him. He is reminded of some great peaceful moment. Whether that is because a beauty lays in his arms, or something more ephemeral, magically real forms an underlying narrative, he cannot say.

“We will leave these bodies and make our way to higher ground,” is the last thing she tells him in primal low Ivory. Almost Aramaic. Strange that she speaks any Ivory at all. Being so fucking Russian and surly. And mad. And also quite Blonde.

She snores at him just a little. Makes unintelligible little cute moans. The last thing he thinks holding her looking up at the huge blue moon is that if some hideous monster or bandit came from the tree line, if bad men, werewolves, monsters or devils came to hurt them, if they sky fell out above them, if the blue moon became a meteor, he’d never, ever leave her behind. He’d fight on whatever level he had to keep this woman safe, to marshal every ounce of his abilities to deliver her from any impending strife.

It all felt like a terrific overpowering déjà vu, as if it happened a few, or perhaps very many times before this very moment. Daria sleeps indifferent to his hold or his guard. Daria has survived a nation of thieves to get here and scuttled through a den of vipers since arrival. Sleeping in a park, with or without “protection”, with or without a mattress or a pillow, these are not so high on her hierarchy of concerns. 

Amid many other pressing troubles, the Vodka and his many yarns sung her eventually  to sleep. The big blue full moon lit up the sky marking on the lunar calendar the end of an epoch and beginning of a functionally existential war for what will ultimately be the fate of this backward species. So much work to emancipate a mostly self-interested race of violent monkeys with space guns.

The partisan Kawa Zivistan, named such by the Arabs and Kurds of Rojava who’s American passport documents say he is also “Sebastian Adoneav ” has also an Ivory name. So does Daria Andreavna Skorobogatova. Amid all the slumbering carnage of the Gypsy encampment, two old souls are reunited. Their breathing synchronizes chest to chest. Their beating hearts match up, and then. Then, there is no beating, no breathing and also no heart beating anymore. Two very attractive husks clasped to each other. As if they had done it so often, for so many lives it was now just a drill. To die and become reborn wherever and whenever they pleased.

WTC-A-1-S-IX

SCENE NINE (IX)

“час от часу”

Pronunciation: chas at CHAsu 

Meaning: just keeps getting better (sarcastic)

Literal translation

“FROM ONE HOUR TO THE NEXT”

Set in the Atlas Park Hotel in Brighton Beach, Breuklyne. You can rent a hotel room with the expectation that no one cares what you do there. That’;s true in almost every part of the civilized and uncivilized world. If you pay by the day, the month or the hour. People stay quiet. You get what you pay for, which is that quiet. 

Make another fucking dirty movie, blyat, or we’ll slow kill your fucking mom,” he said. So she ended up fucking nineteen guys in a series of movies. “I’ll kill her in front of you bitch and make you eat from her fucking corpse.

In pre-revolutionary Czarist Russia a beautiful woman of the gentry, with a powerful father and a substantial dowry even if she were so inclined, was not able to release thousands of photographs and short videos of her pretty face and enormous ripe breasts indiscriminately to potential suitors, horny aristocrats and common serfs, and petty criminals. The technology simply did not allow it in the 18th and 19th centuries. And frankly speaking then, never mind honor and propriety and the status of women; it would not have been strategic for an adventitious coupling. From a matrimonial happiness point of view, but we are not in the 19th century certainly we are not. It is the future now. Women have no dowry, they have rights! Our gentry is far harder to access but not as bound by protocol and convention.      

“Sometimes I’m highly classy lass, and sometimes I take off enough of my clothes over a smile.” That’s what Dasha’s private Instamatic declares. In the City of Penza where she grew up she was a brunette, but now while in America a meticulously dyed blonde. Her name at the agency is ‘Gold Fish’.

So she sits there in her modest Brighton Beach apartment, sometimes in suites paid for by suitors in the then Atlas Park Hotel or the Waldorf Astoria, the Benjamin or the Sofitel.  By the hour she has to work, and she takes a lot of pictures of herself. Thanks to technology, thanks to the future over 160,000 men, well they get these pictures immediately. Sometimes with a selfie stick, sometimes on remote, sometimes she has a professional photographer, but it’s hard to make men do things on a long enough timeline without putting them in.

She’s never depicted of course with her john’s only where they take her. It’s sophisticated art showing strangers on the internet that you’re classy and upper-middle-class and unavailable for immediate purchase, but you like things.

She has a shape that wins her many admirers. 176/57 93-61-95, serious measurements to shape her like a highly erotic, but angelic doll, one social media account is more doll and one is more tits. But the modern man, maybe all men like doll and tits in tandem. It’s hard to say whether this venture is actually sustainable, but she is getting popular. It sure beats working. As a student, a model and lover of fitness this has been a good racket so far. She’s just 24 in this life. It’s sensible but not impossible to get the kind of man who will send a 100 rose bushels across town, to you know, buy groceries and pay your rent.

It’s hard to get in her head, that’s the idea. Her smile is a perverse fake smile, it’s not a happy smile, and you have to work real hard to have a good and winning fake smile. Often thanks to technology men in London or Newyorkgrad can see her rub her enormous breasts and do strange little things with her belly, or play with a cat. She does it all from her iPhone, links it into VKontackte and Facebook via Instamatic to two accounts. And then the offers come in. Most of them are just kind of disgusting. Well at least she can afford to fly her mother here once a year.

She’s never walked a European runway, that’s for sure. What she is a student of no one could guess. Her father thinks this is beyond dishonorable, but she’s his favorite daughter. And honestly despite having big baby eyes, and a tiny, tiny waist and ‘tits for days’ as she says, truly massive breasts for a petite figure like hers, and everything is real. Well suggestively is the color she paints with. It’s gotten her an international following. 

Because that is how the modern commodification of flesh works, the horizontal voyeurism, but not consumption, of designer curves and suggestiveness. On SUPE you can get more, shall we say intimate with Daria Andreavna’s form.  

“You’re getting way too skinny,” Sergei Abromovich once told her, it was almost the first thing he told her and you have to be careful telling a woman like that she’s anything but perfect. “It’s totally normal” she told him,” and referred him to a website of Russian models, but honestly none were as slim as her. 

Sergei supposedly works as an accountant at the Atlas Park Hotel in Midtown. Though that is dubious. He pays for her classes, her rent in the shared apartment, he pretty much pays for everything. He loves her too much to be a legitimate sponsor.

Now no one wants to believe they are exploited, or being manipulated. No one likes to be deceived, you want to get what you paid for, you want out more than you put in, this is capitalism. Exponential reward for diminishing volume of work.

I worry that in your desire to please your clients you take on dimensions that are unhealthy. And I mean not say this so boldly, you must consider your own health and longevity above the peering eyes and thick wallet of the fans,” Dmitry Khulushin, her top sponsor wrote.  

What a stupid, almost Ivoryish thing to say, she thought looking at this message from the Atlas Park Hotel. I am adored exactly how I am. In all my skinny and all my round. I will make someone send my favorite dumplings, she says. Or roses, or new victory bras for my big and beautiful, you know. Maybe Red bottoms, also a new puppy. New Years is coming, options, so many options. Hopefully a brand new life, in a brand new time and place. In a brand new life, everything could be okay. It would all be simply amazing. Should the impossible become possible, the untrue become true and the nightmare somehow transmogrify into a happy dream.

“I’ll tell you what though. Whatever they do, did, are still gonna do to me. My sisters had it much worse in the long run. Because I was eventually allowed to die. They both had to live with what our father was capable of.”

If I give in and I eventually marry Sire Dmitry the Oligarch I can move to the City and put all this, shall we call it; ugliness, behind me. He will be able to secure me. Stupid people say that money cannot ever buy happiness. But it certainly can buy one of all the main options. Thus, with many options you can get about as close to happiness as human life can get. But, when you are cold and hungry and have no green card. Both options and happiness are just abstracts. First comes security at all necessary costs.

WTC-A1-S8

SCENE-EIGHT (VIII)

“взять себя в руки”

Pronunciation: VZYAT’ siBYA v RUki 

Meaning: to pull oneself together; to calm down

Literal translation: 

“TO TAKE ONESELF INTO ONE’S HANDS”

Set in another Supper Club over on 189 Chrystie Street. One with a more discerning door policy than having 2 teeth.

“I’m not fully happy with some highly central elements of my life”, thinks aloud Siegfried Sassoon the actor. I cannot exactly say that I am satisfied, though I do have many elements of a good life going; I am not using my human potential; not as an actor and not as a man. Siegfried Sassoon, the Cuban American actor is a begrudging friend of the resistance. He works as a bartender in the nightclub called ‘The Red Fox Box”. 

There are only several places where they cannot hear you, see you, record you and file you by number. And these places are not one hundred percent secure, they only make your detection harder and prolong your date of capture.

Bathhouses, fitness clubs, loud electronic music venues, camping & wilderness activities, dancehall parties, and in the back of municipal ambulances.

I take to the woods. There are so many things we forgot to do when we became civilized; we lost innate mechanisms for our self-preservation; we became reliant on government, on governance, on divisions of labor so infinite that we no longer possess any intrinsic individual use. Well, a great deal less anyway.

I am following a new serial on Netflicks and Chill. I have no stomach for film or TV! I was classically trained in Moscow for the stage! For the fucking stage, but that is a dead medium now. I have a bachelor’s in philosophy. I wrote my thesis on the history of time travel. I work as a bartender at an elite supper club in the Isle of Mann. I have a pleasant and attractive girlfriend, she is not as amazing as my last girlfriend, but she makes me happy and keeps things mostly drama-free.

My father works for the military-industrial complex. I rarely see him. My mother is still a hippie. It’s peace, love, and light, and then you marry rich; it’s good for your future, your children’s future. My father has a job I don’t know the details of; his company holds patents to space craft and commercial airlines, it builds them for the United American States; the U.A.S. has been the name of the 87% of the U.S.A. that was not lost to socialism during the Separatist Wars of 2012-2015. The Capital is now in Chicago. The 13% lost is called the Autonomous Administration of North and East AmericaThe Isle of Mann is just over the river from the so-called ‘Breuklyn Soviet’; which is one of the most heavily armed hotbeds of the sedition. The Bronks and Queens are confederated with it; Staten Island is an enormous military garrison, it got very blood for three years, now it’s all quiet. The rebels threatened to use atomic weapons and took hostages. I will tell you what appears to work; terrorism it seems to work every single time. It is actually understood to be far less bloody than conventional war, and a lot less expensive. Who fundamentally funds these rebels is a subject of great debate in the high class circles I run in. Oh yes, the upper classes are composed of big brained thinking men.

My particular club, like many of the establishments in cash rich, high stressed Isle of Mann, high tower living; caters to the millionaires and billionaires that compose what you might call were you to cite rather populist rebel propaganda; the 2%. Wealth in the United States of America and subsequently in the United American States is a maldistributed slope like absolutely anywhere else in the 206 habitation sectors, em, countries. In virtually all 206 national harvest units the distribution is about the same; though there are sharp gradients in the peripheral and semi-peripheral zones; social welfare systems and trickle down economies have enabled most of the 46 Core nations to eliminate all obvious forms of extreme poverty; life below $1.25 a day. Underclasses of course exist; the Muslims in Europe and the Noires and Mestizos in the U.S.; but they are not volatile, starving underclasses, but observe the slope; same in peripheral zone Kenya, as Semi-Peripheral zone Brazil, same are core zone France; a slope of the underclass and “middle classes” that in raw net wealth and assets are not radically disparate. Suffice to say you could call much of the middle class, the working poor. And in any society, the distribution of reported wealth, emphasis on reported wealth would show that with welfare, with subsidy; the majority of the citizens of any county; 80-90% are all on a slope that tapers off at its highest mark at annual earnings of $100,000 per year; then you have a 5-10% of the Bourgeoisie, the Upper Middle Classes, white-collar managers, athletes and celebrities with earnings let’s say between $100,000 to 1 million per year. This still is not a radical accumulation of wealth, not on the scale needed to exercise power. Control of political and productive mechanisms. And then you have a class in itself, what they called in Occupy the 1% is actually 0000.1% of the remaining population; a Kleptocracy; more appropriately called; the Oligarchy. Organized into clubs and factions that see national boundaries as mere human resource brands, or more appropriately the names of various large scale mega plantations. 

I did not come to any of that by reading the manuscripts or hearing the speeches of Zivistan, Solomon, DeBuitléirs and other famous and familiar rebel orators. I am no prole, nor were their Partizan songs written with my class in mind.

These Oligarchy men do not even come to my supper club. But I pour their managers drinks. I pour their entertainment drinks. I stay sober sometimes while their supervisors drink and I know about things like robots, clones and the great salt mine. I knew that the ‘new Panama Canal’ had already been built in the 1980’s. I knew this from the mouths of babes. The call girls these lackeys bring around. I have smoked joints with fellow help and shared what we’ve all heard about the great wide world.

Zivistan tried to recruit me no less than twice to twenty three times a year in round about and direct appeals to my level of awareness. I long suspected he would ask to spy for him, or something trickier. I’m a man of privilege, but not impervious. My father is well connected because of his company’s trade in trains and planes and missiles; but if the secret police took me there would not be very much he could do. I have friends too from the Club in which I work; but honestly when they take you they take you away. Your body is found in a tragic accident or a suicide, but that’s not your real body; you end in a container ship and then in a secret prison and that’s all she wrote.

I once wondered if “Kawa Zivistan” could ever analyze the sacrifice of his own privileges. Being white, being raised upper middle class from a family with land. Well his father is no lesser oligarchy but still they were the House of Zivistan! Excuse me, the House Adoneav. An esteemed lesser Ivory house allowed into certain elite clubs, given lands in both the District Financial and the Hamptons. Allowed in professional trades despite being Ivory. Well, suffice to say that house was eventually outlawed and obliterated after the Great Revolt.

They stripped his Ivory father of all his land and military rank. Then they executed his entire extended family. This is all I read in the underground papers. Sometime immediately after the Great Revolt began. The 803 Martyrs of the House Adonaev. They even hunted down and killed and tortured many of Sebastian’s past lovers. 

‘The world to come’ is not a much-changing world from all the many worlds before it, though Sebastian Adoneav now more infamously known as “Kawa Zivistan” is still working overtime to make his many enemies pay for their crimes. There are always barbarians at the gates, slaves in electrified sex cages, and bloody bloody unrest in the colonies. It has always been this way, it will always be this way; who am I or Zivistan or any in the Resistance to clamor for ‘a new world and a new way’. Zivistan and I used to sit in the downtown bathhouses and I would hear his yarns. I could hardly believe much of it was real. We were in university together, though I never joined his movement officially. Never took the plot outside the steam room. The House of King and House of Zivistan were of relatively equal social stations. He seemed to disregard my sympathies to him and grew angry as we got older that I didn’t wish to die on some barricade like him; but there are no barricades now; there are only strange events. Strange changes to reality that happen to keep up with the future science and black magic making war.

Nothing is what is what it seems! Are these vast plantation camps or are they so-called developing nations? Is democracy about speaking freely or is it about governing together? Why has the winter not ended for three years in grim Massachusetts? Why do proles take trains to serve others in the Isle of Mann and those trains take 45 minutes, but I know and Zivistan knows that to get from Manhattan of Breuklyn Soviet you need a plane or a 40-mile base jump down a mountain. Are you a citizen or are you a serf? Did America win the Cold War? Why is it half of the lesser, and one-third of the greater oligarchs all have Russian names? What is a Princeling? What is the Bohemian Grove? Who are the Free Masons? When is it time to smoke a joint and join a conspiracy theory, or get your cock rubbed via Netflicks and Chill? How much is human life really ever worth?

Make us a good price! I came to much of these realities during my senior thesis called ‘A History of Time Travel; which explores the metaphysics behind parallel reality states, fourth-dimensional travel, and such themes of Pre-Soviet parapsychology. My ex, I can’t say her name as it was so painful to lose her. Her father is a well known Greater Oligarch. From she and from Kawa Zivistan and also from the whispers of the lower echelon elites assembled at the Red Fox. I learned that truly nothing is as it seems.

Kawa Zivistan, before he mostly embraced the Baha’i nonviolence teachings of Sheikha Saadiya Usmani and was inducted into the Blue Lodge. He was a killer. I watched him evolve. I saw him go between talk and action over a period of ten years, he was changed by his experiences in the colonies. Palestine first then in Haiti, then Syria, and into the imagined wilds of Greater Kurdistan.

I think almost nobody knows what year it really is. How far in the future we actually are. But this actually was the profound elegance of the New Social Gospel, it is open-ended and egalitarian. Disciplined, principled but wildly inclusive. Most importantly as it tidies up mythology, religion, and science; it grounds all who approach it. Ground you in the now as well as the infinitive continuum of being.  

I will not speak to what did or did not happen during ‘the Millennium Theatre Hostage Crisis’. There are wildly different accounts. I never saw him again after that night when the whole country first learned his name. They say he died. As did thousands of hostages being held all over the country that night! Then calm. Then a great gold mist blew over North America. The internet turned off. The world outside our country was blacked out. In that gold, happy mist huge changes were made. There was no more Zivistan. There was no more United States; the entire population was put to sleep. When we woke up out of the dream, out of the week following the Millennium Hostage Crisis. Some estimated 13 % of America was a wild rebel “free zone”, and 87% was called the “United American States’ ‘, had always been. And you couldn’t take a 45-minute train to Breuklyn, no this violent anarchic thing called Breuklyn Soviet was a 40-mile drop off a cliff where the East River used to be. There was a mile-high wall between the edge of that cliff; and I was still in the U.A.S., which had always been the U.A.S. But, Breuklyn, Queens, and the Bronks were no longer Federal territories. These were now autonomous zones we were prohibited from traveling to. Rebel cantons. Lawless zones of sedition. American Soviets.

I got a letter in the mail from Kawa Zivistan, after he supposedly “died”. I guess a courier moved it across the lines. The letter stated he was interned in a special engineering camp not far from Boston, another recently liberated City State. He told me that shortly his compatriots would be taking him out of the camp ad returning him to “Breukelen Soviet”, which was of course he claimed now ‘free.’ And what did he want, why had he written? Of course, he wanted something. He never was capable of just having a normal friendship. He had taped a micro USB chip to the letter; it contained god only knows what. Nothing would shock me. His letter asked to go to 7th FDNY EMS Outpost in Chelsea. To find a paramedic named Anya Drovtich. To buy her a non-alcoholic drink and give her the chip. Just commit treason. Flatly speaking.  

I had met Anya Drovtich once before the letter said. ‘A real bad-ass Muslim sexy Polish chick with dreadlocks and red Hijab.’ That narrowed it down quite a lot. What the rational person would do, despite having knowledge of a highly irrational world, even sympathizing with the resistance secretly. Having bathed and been friends with supposedly dead public enemy number three, behind DeBuitléirs and Solomon, ahead of famed Jamaican Rebel Tabor commander still at large in the so-called Breuklyn Soviet Mickhi Dbrisk. I remembered this Anya, I let them both in the Red Fox Club once on the night against my better judgment. They were planning to take hostages. In the end, they were ordered to stand down. Zivistan got drunk and pole danced for her in a private room. He wasn’t always so dower, unsmiling, and totally humorless.

I look at this letter in my hand and I wonder what I should do. Turning it in means incriminating myself. The televisions have said he was killed in the hostage crisis along with co-terrorist Emma Solomon. This is proof of sorts he is alive; maybe his prints are on this handwritten letter. His security culture is sloppy I know. Maybe throw it away? What’s on this micro USB chip? Should I even open it? Maybe this is all a setup, maybe the Joint Terrorism Task Force is looking at anyone Zivistan used to know and I used to Banya with him twice a year, he’s been to half my theatrical openings. Maybe it’s another purge. And why would he send this to me? All of these years later. He’s been officially dead for over three years. 

Yes, the hostage tragedy happened in 2015? I think so. Or 2017? Maybe, they say never forget, but I do forget. So much happened, so much was changed. So many people died in the Millennium Theater Hostage Crisis. I know, what the public doesn’t know is that the rebels were very close to using nuclear warheads against major American cities. Leveraging that was what allowed the Separatist victories. I know that the Department of Security in the Homeland pumped gas into all of the hostage points, four if I remember and that gas killed most of the hostages, not the rebel small arms fire.  I know the official story is that Emma Solomon, a citizen of Spain and Kawa Zivistan a dual citizen of the USA and Trinidad, some allege, also Illubador lead some forty terrorists into a packed showing of a new Broadway play and held hostage some 850 people, mostly the Creme de la Creme of the lesser Oligarchy in New York and celebrities; and then coordinated seizures of buildings happened in Las Angeles, Atlanta, Houston and Chicago; and then there was 48 hours five site siege; and the terrorists called for an end to the three-year Separatist Wars and independence for 13 Soviets; 13% of USA’s territory, including all of the Puerto Rico sex colony. Then, blood, fire, gas, and then as if nothing had happened all. Just like a mass shooting or a bombing in Baghdad.

I ask myself, I ask you; what would you do? The world is falling apart, the wars are closer and closer to the top of the mountain; no one is safe. What is on this USB could be highly consequential, or could be a test or a setup. Plot upon sinister plot!

Anya Drovtich who I have met only once. How consequential is her role in the Resistance, how close she is to Zivistan. What should I do? We all know at the Box that the Secret Police are cunning; 17 whole agencies spying on us. You never know when you’re being filmed only when you’re maybe not being filmed; we carry these fucking phones everywhere like the mark of the beast.

In the woods I am free. There are of course cameras in the woods too, there are even cameras I have read inside dogs and cats. Even inside bees! It can make you a little insane to keep reading. There is no conspiracy your rational mind declares! There is no oligarchy! There are just the high, the middle, and the low classes; a product of their merit and work ethics. Whites are on top because they work hardest, we all know that! And life is certainly better in the United American States, which has always been the name of our country; than anywhere. Definitely better than that corrupted, vile violent mafia Federation of Russia. I do live dearly having studied there as an actor for a year. And evil red China with its pollution and one child-woman killing policies, which I do love dearly, my ex the love of actual life being half Russian, half Haan. I digress. Well, most of the proles have never left America. Most of the upper-middle class if they have left America they’ve gone to Europe or the tourist garrisons of the Caribbean. Or banal Costa Rica, the C.I.A. eco-colony-sugar brothel. Who can say they’ve seen the world! Who has laid eyes on the Salt Mines! On Kandahar! On the night train from Beijing to Moscow. Almost none, and thus they cannot believe the things the resistance says are happening, are even real.

One year, maybe it was Gregorian 2010 CE, Zivistan and I went to the Russian bathhouse on 88 Fulton and maybe he liked the Banya so much because we can talk freely. No phones, no hidden mikes, you’d hope, no cameras, you’d hope. Or at least the illusion of privacy in the stream and sweat. He took out an envelope and showed me pictures of the atrocities in Syria. He told me they were preparing to send fighters and medics. Would I go? Would I raise money? Well, I feigned enthusiasm but ultimately contributed nothing. Like when he’d asked me to carry out some operation on the trains they were planning. Well anyway, everyone they sent into Syria was killed. He was shortly after arrested and tortured for sedition. And by Fructidor 1st, Labor Day 2012 the Great Revolt had begun and the rebels soon took over, slash “liberated”Breukelen, Queens, and the rest.

History will absolve almost everyone! I have looked this man dead in the eyes in the steam of the baths and heard him say seditious things and never informed. I am still absolved. One day people may look back at their uprising and say they committed atrocities, they were extremist, anarchists even! They tipped the arch with their fuckery! If you showed me a video of Zivistan executing four men with a shotgun, like the one they played on TV. If you tried to tell me Zivistan was really a Persian sleeper; a Shi’a triple agent. Like they said on TV. I wouldn’t believe it. I wouldn’t believe he’s killed a single person. They just seek to ruin him so his words mean nothing.

I ask myself again what on this latest USB? A list of names? I could bring it to Haan Town, they would tell me for a pretty small price. Or maybe I’ll bring it to Anya Drovtich. Hand it over to the Banshee Underground to get it where it needs to go. Those people can move anything. 

I want this last thing to be clear. I am just an actor. Like Jews, we are not really supposed to be able to even vote. I am here to capture the human experience and make it relate. But the craft on stage is dying, it’s a bourgeoisie fringe event. That Hamilton brought back black face-white face, claiming to empower people of color, forgive me while I quietly vomit in my hands. I am making the last round of drinks on the Titanic, and knowing what I know, seeing what I saw; you cannot escape the coming war. Too much was accumulated for too long and now, well now I need another drink.

A New Orleans whiskey or a Mescal maybe. Something mega Smokey. I’ll just head to work and if I can think of a clever way to get Ms. Drovtich this token of our mutual friend’s appreciation, I’ll do it not for some cause, not because of the atrocities, not because of anything. Because if Kawa Zivistan is alive, if he’s passing women notes again. Well a loyal droog, and I think myself a loyal droog to him; I will pass his little note along.

I am not an old soul, but I do remember the past. I did write a book on time travel; I know that Kawa is a serious person who has suffered a lot. That he is also a mad man and possibly a terrorist, well cheers he is also my friend.

Comrade, I know you cannot hear me! I know it is not safe or prudent to hand Anya your calling card. I will either follow her after her shift ends on the ambulances, or I will call 911 to fake a medical emergency, have her take me, or some accomplice to the hospital and in the back of the ambulance where we believe no one is filming us; I will hand her the USB.

They used to say on the TV; ‘if you have nothing to hide why do you care if we watch over you’. Then there was fucking Snowden. Who defected to the Russians and testified that every single cell phone call, text, email, even ToR and snap chat was stored in National Security Agency server warehouses. Filed and linked to social security numbers. Even when Patriot Acts I, II and III came out; basically canceling out whatever ‘proud sacred rights’ the Americans thought they had; we said we were not terrorists! Who cares?! Brink booze and watch Sports! Free Netflix and Chill! They used to try and tell us on TV Democrats and Republicans were different somehow. Well, the things they say are different, but now both parties are suspended under the War Powers Act of 2077. 

Who’s the President of the U.A.S.? That’s what Anya the N.Y.F.D Paramedic will ask me or my accomplice. After our name and ‘if we know where we are and what day of the week is it. The orientation questions. If she asks me ‘who’s the President of the United States of America’, instead of asking me who is the President of the United American States; well that’s a resistance code.

Kawa told me in the letter, ‘When they take you, pretend you’re very, very drunk, just as the Russians trained us!’ 

I wonder if I will see my old supposedly dead friend ever back to happiness. What would make a man like him happy? A nice girl. A life on the beach? A fast car? A published book? Well everyone has a price do they not, we all have a price. Sadly, what I think will make my old friend happy, as happy as he can be at this juncture. “Falsify a medical emergency, avoid detection by using some proxy you seduce, and pass off that card to the underground. That would make me so happy.”

Well, he put as much in explicit pamphlet writing: “The aim of the entire Great Revolt, therefore, is to take full control of the means of human development at the most localized levels without using unnecessary violence to do so. Thus we harness our collective might to secure our human rights entitlements once and for all.” But there was something more to what he was doing than all this rhetoric. That’s why people listened to him and risked their lives for his various visions. Albeit sometimes very begrudgingly. 

One time he was very, very drunk. Or at least pretending to be so. And he told me about the alleged execution. The highly brutal execution of his first love and first rebel co-conspirator. Some woman named Emma he had known in the Jewish Military Colony when it existed. On the eve of the dark years.

Initially. I helped him because of that story alone. Not any political style idea. I was actually moved. By just how much they had taken from him and how far he was willing to go to hit them back. All the way up the mountain. Into every castle and high tower. Thus my ‘sympathy with the resistance’ was not based on an ‘imagined community’. It was based upon  a basic human bond. Something inside me knew this man was going to take this all the way to the most secure Ziggurat, on the highest peak of the mountain, to go as far as he could. And we all need something to believe in.

GOLD LION, Poems 201-204

GOLD LION

#201, #202, #203

Written between 20-22 December 2010

Day One:

A Letter from a Lod Prison

Better to die on one’s feet

   Then in exile on your knees

     Through the bars.

               I see my impending exile.

                      I see pines.

                                I see defile.

                                I see sand bars.

                                            Airships.

                                                 I see evil memories.

He had wished to call her, to inform her:

  That the earth was smaller.

      Now confined to a cell all Levad.

         A simple cell.

So close to deportation and so far from God.

             A simple foil.

               Whispers once offensive, destined to make all apprehensive,

                    Of separating feet from Brooklyn Soil.

And Zion’s road is Lo-Besheil Nashim ain Hadar.

An ever grind!

                        A vicious toil!

   So close! 

He’d been, to put his hand in sands of native soil.

He had,

  A manuscript to finish,

    He had it in his?

 A green bag.

    “Why so blind,” the kind guard asks.

                  “Let him smoke a Noblisse in the yard.”

  Carried, black his lungs.

       Off Red ideals run ragged, fail in the real world and often the mind, 

      And the terrors on the roadside calling,

          Made him dream of Palestine.

                           He had one love.

                    For her that made him smile,

            Brooklyn Green now fleeting.

                              All out of salt pills.

                                 The other Love for Zion’s hills,

                              Where the chaos and awe of nations birthed and died. 

                     Cycle oft repeating.

The stalling of the great return

                         The morale now falling..

Out the bars:

AND ZION ROAD IS STILL CALLING!

      Takes much from you,

           Each time a blast!

                    Each time more scars.                       

But struggle people struggle on, he mutters: AIN DAVAR.

The Temple Mount.

   Lost cause.

    Lay it Rendered.

         The coastal glow of brothel Tel Aviv?

              The borderlands, 

     the broader cause he ran to,

                        The Darkness 

   Laced of mostly bobbles dreaming dreams he might achieve.

The knucker scars,

    Rewind, the 

  Behind the Lod Prison plex glass and steel painted bars.

     The knuckle scars,

        Behind the bars, his face has born the grind.

          And now

 The View!

   From Lod Prison.

       Has erased that highly-held ideal from out his mind

          KAKH MEH OATI

My freedom is for nothing.

    KAKH ME OUTI

      My love is wasteful chemicals.

          But take me not from my Zion!

            My green hills, my sand hills, my river Yordan; my gold lion.

 But take me not back to babylon,

               On train or plane to exile.

    KAHK MEH OATI

 And she said once that “Zions road is rocky.”

                Our enemies are constant and creep on us unseen,

                               Tempt again the wrath,

                                           The wrath of Israel, AND YOUR CUT WILL BE FNAL!

Your cut will be with those unclean.

            “Brutal”, she had told me on a payphone.

Whisper to her:

     Of wild passion,

         My lover fail me not,

                  Don’t die inside. 

             If your vision compels, in rebel yells.

 It stirs the sleeping hearts of dead men.

    Song of Songs!

        Wrongest of all wrongs!

EXILE!

 Remember!

What we came here to do,

THE NAME!

 Forgot mine?

       “The NAME remembers you.”

How I miss you, as you languish now in Lod Prison not even one foot on your native land and you will be sent back.

    I miss you dearly, you are still where you belong.

    And I breathe life back into you

 To sustain your beat and fill your lungs,

   I will catch you each time you fall

      The road

   The depiction

 The road

   The road has broken your insane contradiction?

    Prepare to take all

    You weren’t there in the garden

   You will still be here in the fall

Who is like you amongst the G-ds that are worshipped?

Who is with us at this very last wicked hour,

Where Humanity lies broken,

Full prostrate 

in whore-ship.

Dread your locks a few times timely,

Glisten yellow shimmer noon,

Darkness hue dies to follow you, 

  your powers from the moon.

 Pump parable or parabellum?

       First virtue? Into nights declare.

The measure of the manger?

    Is to question God; you dare?

Wet skin, nights of white something; like an endless dreidel spin;

Conspire all your violence.

And justify your sin.

Hunt me, Zealot,

“I will find you.”

I can roll like forty in a clip, 

Bone dice Solver, problem with revolver,

In case your lip is prone to slip.

“Unleash me!”

   With Discretion!

“Run we ragged with your plan!”

   I’m Sicarri, I’m Akira, I’m your ruthless dagger man.

And we did it for the martyrs,

For the children of the stones.

Let fly upon Goliath as he seeks to break your bones.

Lay your claw upon our homes?

Lay your boot upon my children’s neck?

Lay your rockets on our Iron domes.

  Seize our lands?

 Come a-crazed,

 Murderous ways, 

 Come out sharp blades, come out fists; come out home-made hand grenades,

      Come psalms on smashed legs, come suras on dust and sand.

  Come to the “Holy Land”,

      Come cut out my legs but I will still manage to fight you, to stand.

Your books taught you murderous ways!

    Rocks? Blades? Bombs? Rat tat tat! 

July is here! Your land or my land?

   Smash the foundations on which you stand.

I am the Lion.

 Not the Dos.

   Shtarker-Bielski-Seigel,

Romans with their eyes cut out,

 Staring down my barrel?

    Death on all your idols, be you bear or be you eagle.

Catch me now?

   I’m falling.

My hands are once again stained,

And the blood I spilled, and the blood you spilled;

For those I killed, for those you killed;

Every fucking summer let’s make it making it fucking rain!

“Like they did to us in Old Spain?”

“Like Saudis on a plane!”

“For what you people did when rocks reigned?” 

“And what we all do.”

It can now never be restrained.

  “I’m a Malcolm. I’m a demon. I’m a Panther. I’m a killer.

“Ball bearings get attention!”

Shabab:

  Slit your ruthless water-bearing pitcher filler,

MARK ME BABEL!

    Pierce my best intentions. 

Burn me, bleed me. Run me like rain.

But I’ll make your talon guts exposed a sanguine paste,

 As we did upon that train.

Choose to breathe us German.

Occupy our skins.

White slaves and black slaves are slaves sold,

Can’t read a book?

Can’t see the past from the future,

Boy-Can’t read but you’re how old?

Engage us, tempt us, taunt us, bribe us, to reside in Babel’s towers,

    With our whole religion bought and our whole religion sold.

 A Banshee boy?

    Oh, I can howl for nights or days,

    A Banshee Boy from Brooklyn?

     In soldier garb?

    Gift bag my gab, 

In fable dred my stories,

    In stories dred by stab.

But I can howl, 

From the burning slums of Portmore to the burning slums of Warsaw, As I relearned my religion in Lod Prison. 

 To rapist rivers in between

   Long memory

 She promised me, will make my people mean.

   As I relearned my religion in Lod Prison. 

Dvotkcka!

   And Tvarish, 

     All our soldiers Jabo-Hai.

      Warble swords and dragoons flying,

I text MOBILIZE.

And the enemy proceeds to die.

Strip-tease a people with your powers,

“We can set your Ark ablaze!”,

That new girl got ass for days.

That new girl just flipped your cover.

The new girl works for 2,000 shekels,

    Honey trapped Hababi,

Cook you imam with X-rays?

I’ve gutted 90 Cossacks.

    I’ve scalped me: 30 Nazi.

       Before you end your bloody daze.

An obsession with repression?

 Absurd to live in ghettos as we did and do,

Still, call each other “Jew”?! 

but that’s the Roman word for N$g&er,

   But as soon as I am released from this Lod Prison,

I went and relearned my true religion,

     I’m called Judean!

       I’m called Ivree, 

I’m called Hebrew, never Jew.

Black hats? White people made you wear them.

    Black fucking hats?

        Made of Forrest rats, made of trash, made of screw.

Black hats?

White dice!

 Black lungs?

White lives lie about your raped wife

 Bello Russian savage cries.

Black hats?

White lies, learn to take their children from them if one single Hebrew baby cries.

I wipe my ass with the blue and yellow flag,

Babi Yar boy?

I wipe my ass with your plagiarized hood books,

    Stolen each word from my tribe. 

Cool religions the white people gave you,

     Drink up your Jesus blood: IMBIBE?

Did your Jesus write in Latin?

    Do you people still listen to Nuns?

How many priests are in jail for fucking your sons?

Strip tease a people with your powers!

We have set your Ark ablaze,

Count the days, count the numbers. 

  Count your goyish ways.

As I relearned my religion in Lod Prison!

Mark your doors in crimson,

 Bind that sign upon your hand,

At the very moment of our rising,

Fly 300 magic carpets wreaking chaos on your land.

300 Magic carpets toward that castle where you stand.

Cause I,

 Can marshal struggle people, blade mento hit yo nowhere you hide,

Yer Iron Heel,

 Yer Iron Dome?!

    We all know in which towers you reside.

From the bunkers deep in Sinai,

 To the Tiyeled of Tel Aviv,

   No quarter asked or given

Not a tear to be bled or shed,

      But I still can grieve!

I do not even often wish my enemy dead.

   I wish to marshall all that terror.

I wish to marshall the dead.

The real terror is in a real war, 

Brought by the men of the grove with no care.

     the war of the Westfalian states, 

I war shall I dare to say: is coming between the eagle, dragon, and bear.

Beware.

I will live to see you dead.

 Call Ze’ev, or call Ben David,

 Call Nasrallah, or even call back Saaladin.

Attempt to break a stiff-necked chosen people,

    We will end by breaking everything:

Cousin, how now! As-Salaam Akleum;

Long time coming.

It doesn’t end so well          

Sugar Cain and Able?

Isaac and Ishmael?

PART II

On Day Two:

View from a Lod Prison

Detained at Ben Gurion, nothing in this prison to say or to do.

You’re probably in a secret place, 

The prison by the airport,

They’re looking into a theory on you.

“Bound for Gaza, Tvarish?”

But where the means make the ends.

You will sit in this cell block until we determine,

   The number and nature of your Arab friends.

Gypsey Gunner rosey devil,

Do you know how far I’d run?

Dagger Man Engagements?

Stop it now,

You’re flying towards the sun!

Stilling living underground and on the run?

Why do you still stare into the sun?

Who made you think a gun was fun?

And the lines he keeps on using as he forgets his human rights and lust complete wrong?

 Sold his soul to Satin?

  Or the idea of Russian Blondes in Satin,

    Or a devil’s gift of swan song.

But the devil is no creature.

Just a figment of the less you,

Calling you is you to keep on silent, call you: you, 

is never mind the iron heel, the Amazon is flowing, what’s the coolest pricing on the latest sweat shop shoe?

 Calling you to happy silence.

Calling you to selfish touches of nothing life.

Til you face plan and wrist knife.

Til you buy some kind of suitable flat, have some kids, and settle down on a wife.

The self-selfish devil do nothing.

  Cant take to Milk River all the things you have bought.

Like when it’s your sword, that runs through your heart in your ever worst thought or recurring throught.

Your vanity, a deadly killer too.

   Just have the last word, have the last fruit of the ego, and think nothing through.

Your vanity, is a kind of deadly killer too.

    Your  wasteds weat, your needless sweet words, your still taking too long as a human, 

  Why you living like this?

Why you letting the Oligarchs do what they do.

Ask yourself; in retrospect

What in that Lod Airport went wrong?

But for a Gypsey, for Salwa, for Birdy, for Meli; you were at your lowest low point, running empty no poems or sing song.

Ask yourself:

Is it really your land?

      Why is that concept so wrong to ask or to overstand?

Touching Gaza.

  Puffing sin.

They had you pegged.

 Red, black, white, and green loving.

The instant you landed!

   The instant you walked in to walk out deported!

Empty-handed!

Remember the Romans and Germans.

Never forget.

“Did it humble you yet?”

Did it show you what complicated thinking we will get?

One ounce of your tears is stil not a drop or regret.

Did it humble you when your invented birthright was stripped like the panties of a Tel Aviv Hooker,

Did you get a little upset, yet?

      Did it teach you a lesson?

          Did you 9-11 style. Never forget?

You’re a Hebrew

 “Not a Jew”, 

They Ashkenazi are running the country for you, 

the county is emperors clothes, 

the country is armed by the American Jews, the Jewish State is barely still Jewish in the see through.

Did the silent stairs of Y and Y, your gibberish mumbled in between, did it make you learn you’re not welcome here!!

Did Tvarish Alon’s offer and temptation merit the Magavnikimm stomp?

 Merit the side pick in between; 

A kick in your face is still not as bad as ripping out nails or a few months in a box, or a poison to shut down your spleen.

“So what I mean?”

“Brav where do you actually stand?”

And he takes me to the yard for a Noblisse cigarette.

 Did you ever ask for forgiveness? As what you could or should have been doing for your country on some other person’s old land?

Promised to who land?

  Promised! 

To bleed until nearly the end of the world for a Jerset-sized olive field; embattled watch tower, 

And the Amerikanski neocolonial expansion: 

Expand!

This is the truth in its innermost parts,

“This is IT!”

“You’re insolent shit.”

  “You’re a valueless beggar!”

Ben zona.

 “Jah should well destroy you. Where you traitorous stand!”

“You’re no actual Jew! This isn’t even your land.”

Is this the beginning, or is it the last part of the end?

Make a 4,000 Skel depost,

“Sign the paperwork here!”

   Make a line item of all of their safe houses.

       Make your loyalties clear,

Happy with every American rubel your compatriot spends:

       Just make a list of your contacts:

                  “What Jew will vouch for you”:

    “Who do you really think is your true Arab friend…”

Ben Zona:

Tell me in the View of Nothing out the cell in Lod Prison; 

       What is bad about remembering everything?

What is bad 

About knowing when did it all end or began?

  What good?

     What have you made for the house of humanity?

        What you could do?

In frail form and 27 years served.

     “What powers do you have that your G-D hasn’t given you?”

         MIKAMOKAH,

“I Eloheim have the power to make your heart pump,

 To make your many hearts work whole.”

MIKAMOKAH.

Only I can make you see or rest you back from death or sleep.

Remember?

You remember.

In Lod Prison, you stopped being a fake Jew 

And became a whole man.

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